Today I am having one of those days where I need to ask God for an extra measure of grace. You know the ones? I woke up this morning thinking "I just don't want to do this today".
During the night last night my throat started to become scratchy and my bones ached. Elijah has woken sounding snuffly. Could it all be linked to the fever day he had during the week? William is still waking for at least 3 feeds every night. I'm trying to be strong and just rock him or do the let him cry for a bit, visit, cuddle, let him cry thing......... but I'm so tired I often just take him to bed with me and feed him. It gives us both more rest.
Today Stuart has gone. Again. He's at rehearsal from 9am until 5pm. It's Saturday, and I want him home with me. I want him to play with the children and offer me a cup of tea.
It's raining outside and my heart feels all rainy too.
There, that's my whinge. On the up side, the kids and I have some special things to do today. We have an Almond and Raspberry cake to bake for my Mum's birthday, and bags to pack as we're off to visit her tomorrow. That will be so lovely. We have gifts to wrap and washing to complete.
Now Lord, just give me the energy and enthusiasm to do these things..... and some joy to go on the side! I love my family and am so blessed to have them. It's just that an aeroplane ticket to a tropical island is oh so appealing right now............