There is a lot going on in our family this week. May I share?
I have had some issues with heart palpitations / shortness of breath / dizziness on and off for the past month or so. I went to see my GP about the issues a few weeks back, and was booked in to get a holter monitor (you wear for 24 hours for heart monitoring) on the 16th September. On Saturday morning, the palpitations got really bad. My heart was positively racing, despite the fact that I had had no caffeine or any other stimulants, and I was home alone teaching my piano students - my most relaxing day of the week! I wound up very short of breath, and very dizzy - and ended up going into the ER at our local hospital. To cut a long story short, I was in for about 5 hours, on an ECG and oxygen, and was diagnosed with PSVT - basically a rapid heart rate along with "extra" beats. It is unknown what caused this to happen, and numerous tests are being done to find out. Right now I am sitting here with the holter monitor strapped to my body (we were able to get it earlier based on the issues I had on Saturday) and have cords all over the place. It's not a pretty sight.
I must admit all this gets me pretty worried. I just want to be well to take care of my family. The thought of having a heart defect (yet to be determined) scares me - the thought of not being around to see my children grow up terrifies me (morbid I know, but the thought does cross my mind). Anyway, would you pray for me please? Lots of tests are being done this week so I am desperately hoping for some answers soon. God is giving me enormous peace and amazing support through some wonderful friends, which is helping so much. I know 3 people who work at the hospital, and all three were working the day I was in - and 2 of them, who are strong Christians, came and prayed with me while I was there. Amazing grace. :)
In other news, we are pondering deeply some big family decisions. Will we stay living here, or move back into town? Will we continue to homeschool next year, or will Saraya (and possibly Elijah) go to school? These are huge decisions, and I would appreciate your prayers for wisdom for us as we make these too. It is an interesting time. Lots and lots running through my mind. I feel God prompting me to relax, to trust, to rest, and not to worry. So I'm trying really hard. ;)
Life is filled with seasons. This one is a little hard because it is filled with unknowns. But I lean on this verse, and I am filled with peace.
"For I know the plans I have for you" says the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future". Jeremiah 29:11